My Paul: 24 Oct 2010

left thigh unusually warm
from the weight of his head
as he sleeps
seeing him this way
as my heart nearly leaps
from my chest
wishing to be his
wishing to still know more about him.
Life is so beautiful
so short but so full
when he's there to fill it up
was there really a time
in my life before him?
were my smiles real?
did I really know joy?
did I really have love?
no.
and I know
my life will always be filled
with him.
his laugh.
his tears.
his tired sighs.
or it won't be life
at all.

It's been a good day for the 1st music video debut

pronounced" dee-butt". :)

This is my brother who is a doctor and I'm a pirate.

Happy. In love. In a homemade dress.

I made a music video today. Steve is helping to edit it and it'll probably end up on Youtube. Hooray!

Here are the lyrics for the 2 songs I've written: better if you know the originals.

P-Town

(Parody of Party in the USA by Miley Cyrus) 11/5/10

I hopped off the plane @ SLC

With my stuff and my name tag on

Welcome to the land of LDS

Am I gonna fit in?

Jumped in a bus

Here I am for the first time

Looked to my right and I see the Y mountain

This is all so crazy!

Everybody’s lookin’ so gringo!

My tummy’s turnin’ and I’m feelin’ kinda carsick

Too much pressure and I’m nervous

Then when the bus man turned onto I-15

And a hip hop song came on

a hip hop song came on

a hip hop song came on

So I put my hands up to cover my ears

White handbook still applies

Closing my eyes like “yeah”

Ignoring the world like “yeah”

I put my hands up to cover my ears

No worldly stuff, you guys.

Yeah!

It’s an RM coming back to P-town.

Yeah!

It’s an RM coming back to P-town.

Get to the ward at 9 o clock

Everybody’s lookin’ at me now

Like who’s that girl and where’s her comp

She’s gotta be from outta town.

So hard with Latinos not around me

It’s definitely not a Hondo party

Cause all I see are poofy hairdos

I guess I never got the memo

My tummy’s turnin’ and I’m feelin’ kinda naucious

Too much pressure and I’m nervous

Or is it the parasite that I picked up

In my 2^nd Area?

In my 2^nd Area?

In my 2^nd Area?

So I put my hands up to cover my mouth

I feel vomit in my throat

Runnin’ away like “yeah”

Ladies’ room like “yeah”

I put my hands up to wipe off my mouth

And try to clean off my coat

Yeah!

It’s an RM coming back to P-town.

Yeah!

It’s an RM coming back to P-town.

Feel like I’ve been in a dream (in a dream)

Without nametag wanna scream (wanna scream)

Somethin’ stops me every time (every time)

Teach at MTC and I feel all right

So I put my hand up to write on the board

Ser, estar, ver and ir

My class is asleep like “yeah”

Spanish review like “yeah”

I put my hand up to erase the board

In June it’ll be a year

Yeah!

It’s an RM coming back to P-town.

Yeah!

It’s an RM coming back to P-town.

I put my hand up to show off my ring

He proposed yesterday.

Sparkle and shine like “yeah”

Carats and gold like “yeah”

I put my hand up to show off my ring

Think I’m gonna be okay

Yeah!

It’s an RM coming back to P-town.

Yeah!

It’s an RM coming back to P-town.

(This is not to announce that I'm engaged. I'm not. I'm also not teaching at the MTC. It's just a song.)

Scripture Mastery

(Parody of Perfect two by Auburn) 11/4/10

Read about Lehi, Read about Sariah

Read about King Noah, and his little fire

Read about Laban, how he’s got the brass plates

Read at least one verse even if you gotta stay up late

Read about Nephi, Read about his record

Read about Ammon, how he found the lost herd

Read about Lamoni’s Dad and his silence

Read about Nehor and his silly nonsense

Don’t know if I could ever be

So smart without seminary

RMs are lookin’ to marry

Me

Cuz baby I have a wish:

I wanna be held tight like unto a dish

Baby I have this thought

I’ll read this book in the cold and the hot

Nephi 7:3

means a lot to me

Faithful we should be

Scripture mastery

Read about Samuel up there on his high wall

Because of his power, sticks and stones don’t hurt at all

Read about Armies of Helaman and their moms

After Lehi’s death, read about his son’s psalms

Read about King Ben up there on his tower

Read about Enos, only takes an hour

Read about the Lamanites, and their facepaint

Read about Abish, fast and she don’t hesitate

Don’t know if I could ever be

So smart without seminary

RMs are lookin’ to marry

Me

1^st and 2^nd books of Nephi

Jacob Enos Jarom Omni

Words of Mormon and Mosiah

Alma Helaman not a liar

Then there’s 3^rd Nephi (Nephi)

Then there’s 4^th Nephi (Nephi)

Mormon, Ether guy (guy)

And Moroni…

You know that I’ll never doubt it

Cuz I’ve read all throughout it

And I’ve even prayed about it

This book has changed my life

Pride cycles of peace and strife

I’ll make someone a good wife

Cuz baby I have a wish:

I wanna be held tight like unto a dish

Baby I have this thought

I’ll read this book in the cold and the hot

Nephi 7 chapter 3

means a lot to me

Faithful we must be

Scripture mastery

Scripture mastery

Scripture mastery

Scripture mastery

The funniest part of today was when I hacked into Paul's facebook account and made it seem that we were engaged. It only stayed that way for 6 minutes, but he got a bunch of comments and "likes", plus his brother called his mom who called him and asked him about it. :) ha ha it was awesome. They caught on SO FAST.

Things are getting better all the time. I'm getting happier.

Look! I was trying to be like Robyn! It's a littler handcart though.

Robyn's home in just 6 days. YAY!!!!!

I have this new friend: Liz

who lives at the BC and she's really nice. We're gonna sew together one of these days. She's chill and funny and brave and we get along. I'm grateful for her. This boy was being dumb and she totally called him on it: asked him to go on a walk and was like "Hey! What's the big deal?!??!?!"! I respect and admire her for that.

The end.